I usually blog about the 29th being the worst day of my life. I lost a dear friend and had to overcome my own injuries at the exact same time. I'm not going to go on and on about it being 7 sevens years and life is so hard during this week. Does that day suck? Yep. Does it get easier to handle? Nope. The day is drawing near where I will not let it bring me down. Not only did I lose a dear friend, but I had to overcome a lot. That often is forgotten. We eulogize my friend, and rightfully so. He was a great man and part of the reason I'm still here.
It does me no good wishing I could go back in time. We can't. I can't take back a bad decision. I wish I could but I can't. So what good does it do to feel sorry for myself? Zero. I still have to work and raise a family, I still have to cut the grass. There will be times where its hard not to cry. I will not let it bring to the depths of despair.
As much as I miss my friend, I have to be able to celebrate the things I had to overcome. Broken leg, pelvic fracture, scars on my hand, arm, forehead, the therapy, the grieving for a dear friend, dad, grandfather, all in the same year. With God, family and friends, I overcame ALL of it. I persevered. So I am going to try to celebrate that day by pouring my energy into my project. For me, Cole, Dad. Its what they would want.
Brian your a good friend, father and husband nobody knows what God has set for us. Just know things are what they are for reasons we could not understand. You have a great heart Brian. Im sure they are all very proud of you.
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Brian Aho, a stronger man than most!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the kind words CR. Anonymous,I hope those are words of support and not sarcasm. My intent is not to show myself as better. The way I handle it might be different for someone else.
ReplyDeleteI really think you should tell your mother what this project is you are working on {:
ReplyDeleteYou are strong because you have to be, we except what we can't understand because we don't have a choice and because we know God has a plan for all of us. I know what it is like to want to go back and try to change the past,of course life doesn't work that way.
Enjoy the people that you love and that love you and find comfort in Gods wisdom.
I love you, mom